This Time

I've been practicing all day

Now the words I meant to say are gone

I promised that I wouldn't cry

Told myself I had to try and hold on

The truth I lied

I hate myself inside

And why

I played the game and paid the price

I never look back

I never cry never try to wonder why

I'll be on my own

And never doubt never shout

or wonder how

I'll never be lonely until

This time this time this time

This time I will

I've been wide awake all night

There's no sign of sleep

inside my mind

The headlight shadows scan my wall

I convince myself

you'll call in time

The truth I lied

The girl in me has died

And why

I played the game and paid the price

I never look back

This time I will be yours completely

This time I'll make sure

you don't hate me

This time I know

this time I can and this time

I will

I never look back

I've been practicing all day

Now the words I meant

to say are gone