I Can't Break It To My Heart

If it's okay

I'll leave the bed light on

And place your water glass

where it belongs

And if it's alright

I'll lie awake at night

Pretending I am curled up at your side

See I'm circling in these patterns

Living out of memories

I'm still a long way from accepting it

That there's just no you and me

But if I still believe you love me

Maybe I'll survive

So I tell myself you're coming home

Like you've done a million times

And if it's alright

I'll still be loving you

'Cause I can't break it to my heart

Is it just me

Did I commit a crime

I won't believe that loving you

Is just a waste of time

Or was it in my head

I'm reading into things you never said

'Cause I still don't have the answers

To why we couldn't work it out

I wanna think it's something that I did

So I can turn it back around

But if I still believe you love me

Maybe I'll survive

So I tell myself you're coming home

Like you've done a million times

And if it's alright

I'll still be loving you

'Cause I can't break it to my heart

And nothing will come between us

I wanna convince myself

we're perfect in

Every single way

as long as I can keep

The truth away from my heart

Oh 'Cause I can't break it to my heart

'Cause I still don't have the answers

To why we couldn't work it out

I wanna think it's something that I did

So I can turn it back around

But if I still believe you love me

Maybe I'll survive

So I tell myself you're coming home

Like you've done a million times

And if it's alright

I'll still be loving you

'Cause I can't break it to my heart